...Will you lay with me and just forget the world?
Is it sad that I want someone to do that with? I only have myself to lay with ... that's even sadder.
I think I'm okay with that though, for the first time ever. I'm starting to be okay with it.
You know what's scary to me? I don't have a safe place. Everyone, well most people have a safe place. The place you go when you need support, comfort, just to feel good and safe.
Most of my girlfriends...their safe place or safe person is their mother. Whenever something is going on, they are sad, had something bad happen...they go to Mom, they feel safe, secure. I don't have that. I dare say my mother is the last person I'd go to if I was sad or hurting. Some have their spouse, no matter what happens they lean on their spouse for support, comfort... I don't have one of those at the moment. Some, it's a best girlfriend... Mine are all 1400 kilometers away.
I don't have a safe place, that scares me sometimes. I'm a much stronger person then I used to be, much stronger, so I can handle allot, but sometimes... you just want someone to lay with so you can just forget the world...
I'm very out of sorts today, I was yesterday too, I thought maybe I'd feel better today, I don't. I'm not emotional or sad per-say, I'm just.... out of sorts... I feel uncomfortable, kinda stressed but I don't have any major stress. It's a weird feeling.
It's one of those times I would look to someone else for comfort. I'm learning to look to myself for that, however, it's just not the same.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GemKqzILV4w&ob=av2e
*Hugs*
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